turning points : Dec 6, 2004

Disclaimer: All characters whether dead or alive has no relation to the story.

A piece of mystery that never comes to an end at every turn…

Chapter 1 – the thoughts

I came to know her back in July 2004. In the first days of entering a new school in a new class for a new course – Diploma in Nursing. She broke the ice when I first join the class. That was when I started to fall for her. Maybe you call this love at first sight. But deep within me, it is this feeling of trust in her that led me to like her. Though she looking plum and doesn’t seem appealing at all. As the days went by, I got to know her even better as we tend to hang out together with her friends in class.

Through this, we got to know one another even better. As the more I got to know her, I also got to know that her enemy, back in her secondary school was a Gemini too. And from her experience with her ex, I wasn’t a true Gemini in her opinion as true Gemini’s are more outgoing and tend to enjoy partying. For me, I am outgoing to a certain extend, and limits myself to certain things and events and am not always that outgoing and keeps a part of myself to myself at times.

The truth only came to light when someone in class probe me this question – who is the person you like? Is she in our class? As I was cornered into answering this question, firstly because it was inside my blog and secondly that since they asked I might as well tell her since I had no courage to speak up to her. I told them the truth in front of her. She was shocked and in disbelief. That I would fall for her – someone who is not pretty and above all not slim at all. She is a Chinese Indian. Her dad is an Indian and her mother is a Chinese. However, it didn’t occur to me that I would have fell for her in the first place and I did not bother with whatever her race was. So long as she speaks my native tongue and is able to communication with my parents… let’s not talk too much about these since it would have been out of point.

I consulted Amanda, on how I should go about wooing her since I was a novice and had not even dated anyone before. I did not succeed in wooing in the end. We turned for the worse – became enemies instead. On the day I passed her 2 bears, one get well soon bear and another alphabet bear, she accepted them at first, but ended up I threw them away as she couldn’t accept me in the end. The reason being I shouted at one of my classmate who made fun of my name. Why on earth would I have done such a foolish thing? Why? I asked myself, the reason being that I was heated up at that point in time and this classmate of ours just made be boil for the past few lessons making fun of my name. I ended up screaming at her outside the lecture theatre before out lecture for the day.

I guess she cried and i felt bad. Apologies to her, but it wasn’t accepted. That evening, someone returned me the toy, told me that she couldn’t accept it. It was all over. On the last day of our first term. Just even before the start of our 1 week holiday.

That night she told me that she couldn’t accept the toy because I shouted at a classmates. I explained myself and ask for forgiveness and didn’t have anymore to tell her since there wasn’t much for me to say to her.

Chapter 2 – the flashbacks

A few days before I officially made it known to her, my classmates have already started to ask me why I had fallen for her. My answer to them was because I like her. But I gave up on the day I made my love be known to her. Why? Because the night before, I came to know that she has someone else which she liked. That news was broke to me indirectly when someone close to her asked her something related to who she liked.

Well, even before I broke the news to her that I liked her, she has begun to avoid me and even worse started to back stab me. I did not come to know the reason why, however, there was once in the lift I saw her talking about something in front of my classmates about me. It was something nasty – not nice to the hearing of the ears. When she saw me inside the same lift, with a faceless expression, she was stunned. Thereafter she kept her mouth shut. Until the moment news broke that I liked her – it was broken in front of her in the library. And she immediately walked out of the library and her friends followed suit for fear that she will do something bad to herself. For one thing, she had indirectly hurt me and I must say I am sometimes slow in response to such. That should explain the reason as to why she had such a huge response.

Anyways those were in the past now as I am typing this story out from the word processor on a rainy day. Will the sun ever come out to shine before me with a new chapter in my life? I’ll just have to wait and see. It’s been quite sometimes since that incident has passed by. We are no longer enemies, just normal classmates.


Thoughts

This story should have been written quite sometime ago, however, due to my tight schedule had to re-schedule all my stories to the holiday period to complete them. Thus, explains this slight delay in these being completed. And you would also have noticed that every turn marks something new happening.


Written: December 6th, 2004